Today, I am going to write from a different angle about GenX. Since I am writing for GenX leaders, I want to share what I am guessing is a common experience for many of us. Do you ever wonder if you really have what it takes to lead well? I often battle wondering if I really have what it takes.
I believe a lot of this sentiment comes from growing up in a lot of difficult circumstances: being homeless, having my family fall apart, the fear of not knowing if we would have enough to eat or keep the power on, a faith experience that spent far more time on God’s judgement than on God’s love, etc, etc, etc.
I want to be careful not to frame my childhood as all terrible. There were in fact many good things that happened and I certainly had positive family and faith influences along the way. However, I was shaped, along with many GenX leaders, by feeling at times quite lost and alone on the journey. Maybe you still feel this way at times today? I know I do.
In fact, just this morning I felt discouraged, alone and disappointed with many unanswered questions and some real difficulties in my life. I didn’t feel like I wanted to face the day. So, what did I do? I took my thoughts and feelings to my Heavenly Father. Here’s the gist of my discussion with Him.
“Father, you have called me to important things. You’ve put dreams in my heart for quite some time now and you don’t seem to be following through to help with them. I feel lost and alone and frankly I’m wondering if maybe I am just delusional or confused. Please help me! Please show me something today…I need the encouragement that can only come from you…until then, I will just keep putting one foot in front of the other and doing the only things I know to do in obedience to you.”
That was my tired and lonely prayer this morning and God provided me the encouragement I desperately needed. The Bible says in Hebrews 12:3, “Think of all the hostility he (Jesus) endured from sinful people, then you won’t become weary and give up.”
So, this morning, I read about Jesus being abandoned and crucified alone and in pain. I thanked him for understanding exactly what I am going through and asked if he would intercede for me with our Heavenly Father.
As soon as I was done praying, both my morning meetings got rescheduled, I received some good news I have been waiting on and God gave me the encouragment I so desperately needed this morning. Now, I’m not saying this always happens when we cry out, but I am saying that when we turn to God in times of trial, He often gives us the encouragement we need to keep going.
I hope this encourages my GenX sisters and brothers who have similiar struggles to me as you do your best to pursue and live out the important things God has called you to.